Alienation is the disconnectedness and dissociation

Of my mind from emotions and the external world.

Falling deeper into a parallel universe.

Like a child on hallucinogens.

My abnormal perception of what is reality.

Isolation, fear of dying;

Not waking up the next morning to the smell of fresh air,

Or the smell of hydrocarbons pouring in through the window.

Direct inhalation, making me feel more alive.

…

Pure bitterness that what is known as “life” is finite.

But what is life? I’m tired of questions that can’t be answered.

Am I awake?

Am I dreaming?

I’m tired.

The human mind is nothing more than a hurricane of fears;

Shifting from high to low pressures;

Panic equalizes.

The eye of the storm widens,

And I’m pulled in by the perplexed winds.

Over and over and over and again,

Each time more traumatic than the last.